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その刑は、悲鳴も聞こえない木が生い茂った山の奥の奥にひっそりある、広場で行われる。皆その毒かなにかに犯されると、苦しみ悶え、半分はそれに食われて尸のようになっていく。
女がそうなるまで男は鍋のような煮え立つ大地のような鍋にかき回され、ぐつぐつクリーム色がかった鍋の中で肌が焼けて具のように混ぜられている。しかし山奥のため悲痛な悲鳴は届かない。私も聞こえない。
その鍋の番人をする少年には、心がない。小さなときからそれをやらされている。苦しむ人を見ても何も感じない。その少年についてきた、本来はその刑を受ける側の幼女は頭のネジが少しもう外れている。鍋を観る少年の腕に熱い鉄棒を付け、フランス語か何かで痛い！痛い！とその幼女が叫んで、走り回る。痛いのは自分ではなくて彼なはずなのに。少年は焼けてただれる自分の左腕を見て、痛みを快感と感じる。というより自分が痛みという感覚を味わえている事に悦びを感じている。そこで少年は自分を拷問にかける計画、死ぬ計画をひそかに立てる。
少年は変な生き物と、数人の人間と、森に囲まれた大きな草原に住んでいる。村みたいなところ。木製の家があったり、物干し竿があったりする。少年は変なマネキンのような生き物(大と小)に、トイレ掃除をお願いする。ただ、自分が今から仕事に行く前大便をするから、掃除はそのしばらく後にするようにと。男だから、と。謎の字幕あり。(この少年の行動は自殺をスムーズに遂行させるのに必要な計画のうちのひとつ)そのマネキンたちはちょっと理解に時間がかかった後、ポーズを取って了解の旨を伝える。
そこから別の人物にフォーカスして、凧を飛ばす人。最近タコが自由気ままに飛ぶらしい。物干し竿にタコがからむすんぜん。鳥のように？なにかのように最近自由に飛ぶ。と彼は心の中でいっている。仕事に向かう前に彼は毎回凧を飛ばす。
以上起床
2024/12/24
女がそうなるまで男は鍋のような煮え立つ大地のような鍋にかき回され、ぐつぐつクリーム色がかった鍋の中で肌が焼けて具のように混ぜられている。しかし山奥のため悲痛な悲鳴は届かない。私も聞こえない。
その鍋の番人をする少年には、心がない。小さなときからそれをやらされている。苦しむ人を見ても何も感じない。その少年についてきた、本来はその刑を受ける側の幼女は頭のネジが少しもう外れている。鍋を観る少年の腕に熱い鉄棒を付け、フランス語か何かで痛い！痛い！とその幼女が叫んで、走り回る。痛いのは自分ではなくて彼なはずなのに。少年は焼けてただれる自分の左腕を見て、痛みを快感と感じる。というより自分が痛みという感覚を味わえている事に悦びを感じている。そこで少年は自分を拷問にかける計画、死ぬ計画をひそかに立てる。
少年は変な生き物と、数人の人間と、森に囲まれた大きな草原に住んでいる。村みたいなところ。木製の家があったり、物干し竿があったりする。少年は変なマネキンのような生き物(大と小)に、トイレ掃除をお願いする。ただ、自分が今から仕事に行く前大便をするから、掃除はそのしばらく後にするようにと。男だから、と。謎の字幕あり。(この少年の行動は自殺をスムーズに遂行させるのに必要な計画のうちのひとつ)そのマネキンたちはちょっと理解に時間がかかった後、ポーズを取って了解の旨を伝える。
そこから別の人物にフォーカスして、凧を飛ばす人。最近タコが自由気ままに飛ぶらしい。物干し竿にタコがからむすんぜん。鳥のように？なにかのように最近自由に飛ぶ。と彼は心の中でいっている。仕事に向かう前に彼は毎回凧を飛ばす。
以上起床
2024/12/24
The sentence is executed in the field in the deep middle of the forest. Everyone who’s on that
sentence gets poisoned in some way and suffers in agony, and the half of them get eaten by the
poison and become a living corpse.
While one lady is becoming a living corpse, a guy is stirred and simmered in a cream-colored huge boiling pot that is like a land. His skin is completely burned and torn in pieces, mixed like ingredients. But his tragic scream cannot be heard from the middle of nowhere by anyone. I cannot hear either.
The boy looks after the pot. He has no emotions. He has been doing that job since he was little. He doesn’t feel anything when he sees people who are suffering in the pot. A little girl who follows him and is going to receive the punishment has a loose screw in her head to some extent. She puts a heated iron bar to his arm and runs around, screaming saying “Ouch! Ouch!” in French. It is not actually her but him who is in pain. He feels pain and ecstasy when he sees his left arm which becomes completely blistered. To be more accurate to say, he feels rapture about himself being able to feel pain. And then, he secretly makes a plan to torture himself and die.
He lives in the massive grass field in the forest with a weird creature and a few other people. It is kind of like a village. There are some wooden houses and drying racks around. He asks creatures like mannequins (a large one and a small one) to clean the toilet after he poos before leaving for work. “Because I am a man.” He says (with the subtitles). ( This behavior of his is one of the necessary plans for him to implement his suicide smoothly.) It takes a while for them to understand what he says, and they strike a pose to imply saying yes.
The focus goes to another person who flies a kite. He says kites fly freely these days. “They fly carelessly like something else..” He says in his mind as well. He flies a kite before he goes to work every time.
Awake
24/12/2024
While one lady is becoming a living corpse, a guy is stirred and simmered in a cream-colored huge boiling pot that is like a land. His skin is completely burned and torn in pieces, mixed like ingredients. But his tragic scream cannot be heard from the middle of nowhere by anyone. I cannot hear either.
The boy looks after the pot. He has no emotions. He has been doing that job since he was little. He doesn’t feel anything when he sees people who are suffering in the pot. A little girl who follows him and is going to receive the punishment has a loose screw in her head to some extent. She puts a heated iron bar to his arm and runs around, screaming saying “Ouch! Ouch!” in French. It is not actually her but him who is in pain. He feels pain and ecstasy when he sees his left arm which becomes completely blistered. To be more accurate to say, he feels rapture about himself being able to feel pain. And then, he secretly makes a plan to torture himself and die.
He lives in the massive grass field in the forest with a weird creature and a few other people. It is kind of like a village. There are some wooden houses and drying racks around. He asks creatures like mannequins (a large one and a small one) to clean the toilet after he poos before leaving for work. “Because I am a man.” He says (with the subtitles). ( This behavior of his is one of the necessary plans for him to implement his suicide smoothly.) It takes a while for them to understand what he says, and they strike a pose to imply saying yes.
The focus goes to another person who flies a kite. He says kites fly freely these days. “They fly carelessly like something else..” He says in his mind as well. He flies a kite before he goes to work every time.
Awake
24/12/2024